Someone you love has ended their own life
And yours is forever changed
Grief doesn't have a formulaic path, and it's likely to be confusing as well as frustrating in that there will be painful reminders and setbacks. It’s okay to take as much time as you need to process the loss of your loved one. It is an immensely individualistic journey and there is no one way to cope with this tragic loss. The shock and grief might be consuming you at the moment.
Ask for professional help and seek out friends who will be there to listen while you express your emotions or hold space for your silence. Additionally, here is a list of helpful resources:
This flyer discusses what you need to know about losing a loved one to suicide
A list of books to help you get through suicide grief:
Get in touch with people who have gone through similar experiences to facilitate your healing
Learn to pick on the warning signs of suicde so that you are more informed next time you encounter a suicidal individual